I Am Enough, Right?

Maybe my subconscious mind is trying to tell me something. If it is, then it sure has a strange way of conveying the message. Why do I dream of being something that I'm not, nor will ever be? Is it that I feel that inadequate as a father, husband and man that my subconscious gives me what I think I need? Or is it trying to tell me to stop being dissatisfied with who I am?

I Mo', Bro

A lot of time we come to a pivot point in life where we can continue to stand on the sideline and let shit just happen to us, or we say to ourselves "enough of this shit, I have to do something." That happened for me a few years ago. I don't know what clicked inside of me, but something did and I decided to get involved.

UncategorizedMatthew HewittOctober 25, 2018acceptance, dad, fear, friend, husband, life, live, man, men, men's health, mental health, movember, shame, struggle, suicide, therapy, you are not aloneComment

Ego Is Not Your Amigo!

Now having said that, I will say that I wasn't such a douche bag that I treated everyone like that. But I did, in fact, use the persona of the chef to manipulate at times to get what I wanted or to steam roll over you to prove that I was the alpha. What a bunch of shit!

UncategorizedMatthew HewittOctober 21, 2018acceptance, chef, chefs, ego, fear, foodie, life, mental health, struggle, therapy, you are not aloneComment

Flawed, Man

The want and desire to fit in, be liked and approval seeking could be, for me, what has led to the most difficult times in life. I became a chameleon able to play almost any role that I needed to. That came at a cost.