For as many successes it felt like 2018 had, it almost feels like the mistakes, failures and setbacks were more. Or perhaps it's just the perception that I have that made those "learning experiences," more overwhelming. Perhaps the perceived and/or realized hurt from my failures is greater than the sum of good feeling I received from the successes.
Read MoreIn one direction I see the spark in the eye of youth. That fire and light of limitless possibility, the cheer that comes from discovery. Or the inquisitive nature of being and ultimately unique point of view that kids have... One us grown ups often lose.
Read MoreWhen I reflect on my life I see that it's filled with the usual, or not so usual, ups and downs that one would imagine or associate with life. However, when I start to really examine my life it seems that there have been a few stories that I have been telling myself, told and/or believed about myself.
Read MoreMaybe my subconscious mind is trying to tell me something. If it is, then it sure has a strange way of conveying the message. Why do I dream of being something that I'm not, nor will ever be? Is it that I feel that inadequate as a father, husband and man that my subconscious gives me what I think I need? Or is it trying to tell me to stop being dissatisfied with who I am?
Read MoreA lot of time we come to a pivot point in life where we can continue to stand on the sideline and let shit just happen to us, or we say to ourselves "enough of this shit, I have to do something." That happened for me a few years ago. I don't know what clicked inside of me, but something did and I decided to get involved.
Read MoreNow having said that, I will say that I wasn't such a douche bag that I treated everyone like that. But I did, in fact, use the persona of the chef to manipulate at times to get what I wanted or to steam roll over you to prove that I was the alpha. What a bunch of shit!
Read MoreWhat happened next was something out of a bad restaurant comedy, or Kitchen Confidential. He proceeded to open up the box of cigarettes and pulled out a massive doobie and said "No, you smokey smokey?" Does a bear wear a funny hat? Does the pope shit in the woods? Hell fucking yes, I smokey smokey!
Read MoreThe want and desire to fit in, be liked and approval seeking could be, for me, what has led to the most difficult times in life. I became a chameleon able to play almost any role that I needed to. That came at a cost.
Read MoreOnce you have a grasp of technique the world will open up and you can experiment on those recipes that seemed just out of reach. I will even take it one step further. If you understand methods and get a feel for ratios recipes will cease to exist...(except when it comes to baking, pastries and dessert making. That shit needs to be precise!).
Read MoreWe have a near impossible responsibility to fulfill. Yet, with some stumbling and a fair amount of failures mixed in, we suit up and show up to do our best day after day, week after week...you get the picture.
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